Be good

At a point of time, I felt that I don't deserve love. Be it be from family or friends.
Coming to think of it - Why can't I let someone be good to me?
I guess I am fighting it because I feel like I don't deserve it.
I resist the urge to approach for help, I want to do everything on my own. This is draining my energy and making me more impatient; which indirectly screw up more stuffs.
A promise to myself - I will be self-sufficient and self-assured, and if any good comes along; I will not pass any more.

Voice

Have you encounter situations where there is a "internal voice" talking to you?
At times, a quiet voice will tell you what to do... and then whether we chose to seek the same path is another story.
Some people refers the voice as it is the God guiding/speaking to you.
Some people refers it as the power in you
Some people refers it as it is just you (you mind is doing the "logical" calculation based on what you have known/listen/learn/seen, etc)

Whatever it is, have you ever follow the voice?
I think everyone must have encountered the voice before, just a matter if you have take note. And it does not come when you call for it.
It will come when you really need it... - at least that is what I think.
So, when you think you are really down; it must not be the case. Alternative, please speak to someone (friends, family or who ever) if you really need some advise and not just sit there and wait for the sun to rise from the west.

Reverse

Last night, I developed another “thought”.
I found myself staring at the taps while brushing my teeth. The taps were labeled as “HOT” and “COLD”.
Coincidence, the words were reflected by the mirror; and were read as “TOH” and “COҐD” (cord).
2 words can have 2 different meaning; depending on how you read it. I am sure there are multiple ways of reading a word.

I am wondering - the person that was standing in front of the mirror (Me) and the person shown in the mirror (also Me); are they the same person?
How do I read myself? How do others read me?
Do I project the same ME as what I THINK I am or what I am?
Do I give people the real impression of me or is it the reverse (like the HOT and COLD)?
I think I didn’t.
Conclusion: The person that was standing in front of the mirror is NOT the person as shown in the mirror.
For my thought: Do I want to change? Or do I want to keep it the way it is.

For you:
Which one are you?
Do you hide yourself?
Do you project the reverse of yourself?

Life… it can be the straight forward or it can be the reverse… depending on your views on what is good and bad.

Overprice wine?

Had an impulse buying AGAIN. I think I MUST stop such activity.
I bought a bottle of 1999 wine @ AU$100. It tastes good but at 100bucks; it is kind of steep.
Anyway, it was suppose to be made from grapes that were planted since 1963.
So, we bought a total of 19 bottles of wine in this "winery trip".

I will be back

A week has passed...
Tonight, I am going back to Sydney..
See you 3 weeks later....

A month of changes

I was away for a month and on the surface, nothing much has changed.
However, when I read further... changes are obvious.

News about Singapore and entertainment:
1. What's up with the AWARE and the gay thing?

2. Mas.S got caught in Malaysia, again; the Singapore tax payers were not notified "early".
Wonder how come the Minister of Home Affairs did not show any sign of "regret" (since the day 1 of the escape). Wasn't he taught that one has to admit mistake and face it? Which I will give him credit if he is "brave" enough to face it. Now, whatever he say and does, people will not respect him. Also, from the forum etc, singaporean are disliking him and this is bad for the country; I do wonder what our smart PM is thinking. Mmm...
Check this link...can you tell what is wrong with the info? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wong_Kan_Seng

Afterall, it is tough to be a good minister... when you have done well and the good deeds will not be remember for long. However, a bad deed is remember for life....
Again, they are paid millions so some mistakes should never happen.

3. 2 deputy ministers? I like that.
Do you know who are in the cabinet? I never care till now.
http://www.cabinet.gov.sg/CabinetAppointments

4. Who and who - actors and actresses...
Getting married.

5. New malls opening

News about friends, family:
1. Me and some friends are putting on weight
2. Racer - new hair cut and lost weight
3. Lotte - Grew taller
4. Friend got married and/or getting married
5. New divorce case
6. New jobs
7. Promotion

Oh ya, the lift upgrade right outside my room is almost done. YEAH!
AND the australia dollars has went UP!!! NO....

Me looking out to the changes in Autumn.

3 is the number

Glad that the weather has been kind to me.
It was not as warm as expect.. (so far); in fact, it does rain yesterday.
I hope the fine weather will continue.

I was surprise to see my dog has a new hair cut.
Mum did an excellent job in grooming him; I am really impressed with her skill.
My dog has a crew cut now... hahaa... neat.

Ok, the bad news - weighting scale shown that I have put on 3kg.
Therefore, the first thing I did was to go for a jog yesterday morning... I want to run today as well.
But since I have a hair treatment yesterday, I was not suppose to wash it today.
Jog will have to wait till tomorrow. Alamak....

Leaving Sydney soon

Tomorrow, I will take the A380 airbus for the very first time.
Looking forward to the "new" plane... I have chosen the upper deck seat. Hope it will be good.
Mmm... how do I feel about going home? Err.... I don't want to go home yet.
A friend commented that I am weird girl that don't like to stay home. I agreed to that statement... but I know I will stay when the time is ripe. I just need to be tied down..hahaa...

Nice Saturday

I am counting the days (<5) to go back home. I am kind of excited...

Yesterday, I went to the city for the whole day.
Took a ferry and the weather was great - sunny but with 15C cold wind.
I really enjoyed the ferry ride and the breeze.

Lunch was the RICH chocolate drink and cake from Lindt chocolate cafe. Yes, Lindt actually has a cafe in Sydney. Isn't it nice.
After that, I just read novel by the water and have a cinder. This is life.
Dinner was again by the water, at a bar. Finally, I have a chance to see the night life of the city.

The ladies here? WOW... my friend described them as "they went out and forgetting the pant".
YES!... the mini top that they were wearing are super short. I wonder how they able to seat or bend.
The men? Woo la la... dress smart, well groom, good body and present themselves pretty well.

Closed the day by having a drink at a local quiet bar, glad that my friend is willing to show me around. Yeah!

Almost an accident

My driving sucks... drove up a curb today. oops...
Almost knocked a girl... she just dash across the street, coming from a bush...
How can I see her when she is so tiny (hidden by bush) and she was running very fast.
Glad that I brake on time. Scary!!!!!

I will be extra careful when I drive now...
Sometime is not the driver fault when people just ran out.
Still I don't want any one get hurt.

Back on action

I was lucky to find a belly dance class near my apartment and today was the 1st lesson.
Teaching method is different from SGP but I find it pretty good.
Just the first lesson, we learned at least 4 moves... looking forward to the next lesson.

link - http://www.readmyhipz.com/

Windbreaker

Had been here for almost 3 weeks and my appetite has increased everyday. haiz... it is so cold and I am constantly hungry
I just went shopping today. Spend AU$220 on a waterproof jacket which was already marked down by 50%. I didn't know a good lightweight waterproof jacket will be this expensive.
Reason for the price is because it is from Kathmudu and is made of Gore-Tex material - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gore-Tex
I got it because it will come handy when I go hiking or skiing...BUT the problem is that it is NOT very nice design and is kind of big... Anyway, I have to layer up so I guess it should ok...
Now, I must go ski when the snow arrives.... I have never ski before.
Oh, my next buy will be a good pair of hiking boot... (oops..another hole in my pocket).