Showing posts with label Thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Thoughts. Show all posts

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Reinventing yourself

While I have some time during the hospitalisation leave, I borrowed a couple of books.
One was "Reinventing yourself" by Mario Alonso Puig. 
Initially, I was sceptical about reading these books as some say - it's your life, so it should be under your control. But what if you have lost control? 
Not indicating that we must digest every single words in the book; but sometimes, we can read and do interpretation according to your life and needs. 

Everyone loves and wants the good thing in life (who doesn't?) and wishing bad thing will never fall on them. 
This is impossible but what we can do is treasure the good and probably do damage control when the bad comes. 

A couple of quotes that I took off the book:
1. If you wish to reinvent yourself, focus on what you wish for and NOT on what you fear. 
How often have I avoid things that I fear and yet complaining I am not doing New stuffs? Mmm.. 

2. When you see a person, do not just take note of the human being that stands before you. Fix your attentions on the state of mind that person has at that moment. It will be very difficult for you to connect with that person if you both have not got into a suitable state of mind. 
This is so true - if both are not in a suitable mindset, the discussion will go nowhere. 

3. Very often the most relevant thing is not to impart knowledge or give explanations but formulate question which allow us to explore things which we had never even considered before. 
Now, I am definitely going to try this method when I get to work. 
Numerous of times, I failed to impart certain knowledge/send the message across to another co-worker. 
It has become like a situation where "he never listens to me". Let see if asking questions will helps. 

4. The body is the subconscious, and for this reason, when you look after your body, you are taking care of your mind; and when you take care of your mind, you also take care of your body. 
Now, how to take care these?

Ooops.. this is a pretty lengthy post. Racer also cannot tahan and zzzz liao. (this is an old photo)


Thursday, June 6, 2013

Living in past and not present

Before going to bed last night, I knew I have to change the bedsheet because it have gathered dust over the vacation period, but I didn't as I am such a sleepy head after taking the flu medicine and I didn't want to hurt my back. 

So now, 5 hrs later.. I am wide awake with an itchy body. 
Ok, some people may judge me but I am used to change my sheet WEEKLY. 
Plus, I think this necessary as I own a dog who sleep on the bed too. 

While changing the bed, I recalled how my mum will place a protective cover over my bed when I travel. 
Now I appreciate why she did so; she didn't want me to change the sheet on the arrival day as I will be so tired. 

Anyway, i always got sever backache whenever I change the sheet - make me wonder why the hell I got king size bed. 
Now I have to pay for it at 4am! 

Actually, I may have turned into a complain and resentful queen as I realised that I may not be adapting to married life(?). Yes, I am admitting this!!! 

I am still dreaming of the comfort life that I used to had! 
I guess I have to face the hard truth now that I need to adapt and change. 
I heard that usually the first year of marriage is tough so I need to hang in there as a year is almost passing soon. 

The other thing that I realise was that I have been using my work as excuse. 
Now, I want my job back and the reason for backing out before, was because I am under pressure with my personal life. 
I do not know how to manage between the two. 

Hope I can get more enlightenment and now, let me enjoy my accomplishment - going massage my sore back and continue my sleep. Mmm.. Fresh bedsheet is the best! 

Good morning ;)

Monday, May 6, 2013

Insomnia

Suffering from insomnia and nightmares recently.
I think I am turning zombie soon.. I just flare up and lay my hands on racer.
Poor boy that become my victim. Sorry!

Just too many emotional going on.
After multiple times, now I truly understand why people quote this "say already also no use, save the breath".
And little small things can built a mountain (?? Is this the right description)

At work, I can speak up and have people consider my thoughts.
Outside work, I am invisible (?)
Anyway, I am glad that my no-pay leave is less than 48hrs away.
I need plan for my life, I have care and worry too much about other feelings that I ignore mine.
It is really tiring and painful to wear a cheerful mask and pretend everything is well.

I even have to confide in my little diary and lock up some items. It is a world opposite from reality.
I must be crazy, maybe it's mid life crisis. Haha..

Oh, came across this site that describe Scorpio:
Mmm.. I am control freak? I guess in some aspect.
Hard to earn my trust but once you do, I will not drop you - damn true!
In all, why it makes it sounds like I am dangerous creature to be with?
http://zodiac-signs-astrology.com/zodiac-signs/scorpio.htm

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Not enough time

Ever think that 24hrs is not enough ?
Everyday I have been stressing about not having enough time :(

Sleep - 8 hrs (my wish)
Meal time - 2 hrs
Feed and walk racer - 1.5hrs
Work - 9 hrs (minimum)
Preparation, shower, etc - 1.5 hrs
Transport time to/fro work- 2.5hrs
Alone time ?
Partner time ?
Family time ?
Friend time ?
Groom racer time ?
Toilet time ? Haha

My sleep has suffered as that where draw time out for others issue.
No wonder I am constantly tired.
My body screaming for more rest.
These days, I woke up with at least 2kg of water retention and that is usually my first warning sign.

I am so tired and it is only 9am.
Wish I can just drop everything now and cry to sleep ..

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Medical bill vs Headset

Today, I received 2 items from the delivery.
1. A bose headset ordered by Sir. *Yeah*
2. Medical bill from the recent cell extract @ thyroid/neck.
It is a procedure similar to blood withdrawing ... A syringe was poked directly at the neck and extracted the cells. *OUCH*.

Well, what is the cause of medical in Singapore?
Apparently, it is more expensive than the headset.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Little thing that makes me smile

After a busy day at work, I was super hungry and yet had to carry heavy laptop home..
During the walk home, I spotted a rainbow ;)
And upon home, a nice warm dinner (plus hairy crab) is waiting for me.

Ah .. So nice ;)


Sunday, August 12, 2012

Annual progress report 2012

OMG.. Last in class!!
How to inspire him when I am miles away?
2 years ago, he dropped out of school and now ...
Really not interested in study ?
Should I continue the sponsorship ?

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

June - best month so far

Love June totally!!!!
- Manage to find a wedding dress just a week before the event.
- Had our wedding
- Brother got a wife
- Had 2 round of father's day dinner
Yummy food :p
- Father's day dinner with two new family members ( both newbie are hainanese)
- Good friend has a baby girl
- Racer staying with us, despite his injury

And coming up are:
- Weekend trip to batam
- Goh's little one bday

Life is good and blessed
Love you all ;)

Monday, May 14, 2012

Wedding dress

I have chose not to have a fancy gown but to tailor make a white dress.
However, I don't get the 'wow' factor when I did the fitting.
I just cannot find the connection :(

Just like when I go shopping, one have to like and feel connected to the item before purchasing. That is what lacking what I tried the dress

Oh gosh, what should I do?
I have paid for the dress
Should I just close my eye and just pray that the event end ASAP ?

Why do I always ended up with the wrong decision ?

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Less sleep make you fat?

Was working late recently and my dear friend sent me this...
Ok, that is an 'encouragement' to lessen my late night.

But at 120am, here I am blogging ..oh no ...

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Who really do this ?

No one is perfect but is the imperfection that make thing beautiful ...
Err.. Should be "acceptable" imperfection...not all imperfection

Now, I think this is too much ...

Monday, December 5, 2011

Believer of what ?

How much will you believe in the other world ?
How much would you believe in the power of gods (of any races) ?
I am spilt in to the dilemma of above and human .

In the scientific world, above are known as mental breakdown that cause one to have illusion.
If so, can things be as easy as sending me to the mental institute ?

It is not as easy as drawing a line as one believe may not be to another.

How can people come to an agreement. How can one make accommodation. How can one learn to trust.

I am not a believer where things can be the same. Either it can grows stronger or weaker. It apply to everything...