Medical bill vs Headset

Today, I received 2 items from the delivery.
1. A bose headset ordered by Sir. *Yeah*
2. Medical bill from the recent cell extract @ thyroid/neck.
It is a procedure similar to blood withdrawing ... A syringe was poked directly at the neck and extracted the cells. *OUCH*.

Well, what is the cause of medical in Singapore?
Apparently, it is more expensive than the headset.

Gone are the smiles

Been long long time that I find job satisfaction?
Gone are the days where I could work 12 hrs per day but still feel happy about it.
Gone are the days where I could happily discussing work with co-workers (of all levels)
Gone are the days where you can find me smiling at work.
Gone are the days where I never able to bring myself to curse and swear at someone.
Gone are the days where I could feel I love my job.

I know that I have to act on it, instead of complaining here.
But because my team just lose a strong player and I don't want to disappoint the other members who I enjoyed working with.
I have given this nightmare till end of the year. And they have been informed.

Time to move on and place my happiness as priority.

Fate

when one believe in it takes two hand to clap, is it referring to fate?
Or luck or timing?
I used to be so ' single '. I enjoyed dating and courtship but was never in mode to be tie down.
Long ago, there was a guy that likes me but i wasn't ready for big R. However when i feel like giving it a shot, he didn't want to.
Wonder is this the thing where what you can't get is the best.

So what you met someone that you like and enjoy the company, you are fortunate.
And, if you are fortunate and lucky, the other will like u as well.
But if you will be happy when u meet one that love u and share the same path.

Enjoy the rest of the journey.

Does shadow mean anything?

Does it looks like a shadow of a "lion" or "cat" or some weird creature?


It is actually Racer's!


It just reminds me that something is not what we expect.
Example: Upon seeing the shadow, probably we are expecting some freak or big animal; but in fact, it is just a cute little harmless creature. Of course, things can be vice versa.

I am upset about some comments that I received a couple days back, and it made me realize that I am materialistic after all.
No way can a woman change its mind once she set on something. Just whether how can I make the situation better.
I just hope I will not get too suffocate and decide to give up everything. I think I have the tendency to try to endure when thing is negative; but also when it get overwhelming, I will quit and that could be a blow or shock to most “normal” people.

Slave to money

When I was young, I had to work if I want to buy anything.
I will spend my money in buying things that I like, but except for one thing...just that one thing.
Leaving no choice with my huge desire to have it, I decide to break the rule - I am saving to buy it for myself.
Depending on others is never the same as depending on ourselves.

Minus my other commitment; I should able to save enough in 3-6 months time?
Mmm... can plan for an early birthday present for myself?

Have you ever wanted something so much that you will save hard for it? Including spending less on food?

Gosh, every time I surf the net; it like calling for me to own it. I must be crazy.
Slave to money again... MUST save...MUST buy.

Expect the unexpected

生命出奇不意的驚喜, 總是在搜索之間, 無聲無息地自然拼發!

Come across this in the internet:

Unavoidable luck

Yesterday, I had quite a day –
1.Morning starts with my water bottle leaked in the bag.
As the bag was sort of "water proof" material, it turned into a swimming pool for my belongings (content include some official documents and camera).
So, I spent the next 20mins trying to clean the disaster in the MRT station toilet - which mean I have to endure the smelly place.

2.Missed the train and bus, so I got to spend 8 bucks on a 5min taxi ride (crazy surcharge). Late for meeting.

3.After work, it starts to pour at the precise moment when I stepped out of office.
For the initial moment, I was glad that I have an umbrella, but not when it broke when I tried to “open” it. Rain becomes my closest buddy then

4.Episode not over yet - sent my watch for repair again (last repair was 9mths ago) but was rudely told that I need to pay for it.

5. Was hoping that I can relax when heading for the facial.
Painful extraction and walked out with a swollen disfigure face!

6.Need to pay some "last min" bills but the nearest SAM machine was down, so I walked a distance to the next one; and within my expectation: something else happen – my bank limit has prevent me from paying. DAMN!

7.Finally, Home sweet home but to my horror…. My camera is spoil. ARGHHH…

Sleep!!! Day over

I hear, I know. I see, I remember. I do, I understand.

Come across some Confucius quotes today:
1. They must often change, who would be constant in happiness or wisdom.
2. The grass must bend when the wind blows across it.

What it really means to me is that we need to change and bend with situation.
No matter how hard we try to be "ourselves", we can never beat the situation and even we did won... we can be so beat out by the long war.

Remember I said about expectation? I wish I could have set no expectation so that I can be happy; but without expectation, there will be no room for improvement. What is the choice?
But sometime, it may be the situation that gives false hope, which eventually leads to expectation.

Example:
Out of the blue, a parent told the kid "Hey, how about I buy you a toy".
Initially, the kid wasn't expecting any gift but once the parent has promises, it will lead to hope and expectation on what the toy can build up.
Naturally, the kid will reply "GREAT, can I have this toy instead" and probably go on and on to describe the toy.
The day when gift was presented, the kid is upset because the toy is not what he/she want.

Tell me whether it is the greed of the kid that led to disappoint, OR is the parent that lead to the kid's high expectation?
As a child, I have learn that whatever I want; I will have to work hard to get it OR I rather not having it.
This principle has stayed with me and will stay in me - I rather not have things that I am not happy with.

The society has build a certain aspect and expectation on how certain things need to be done; and it is what we can a "norm". Can you live and keep up with the norms in this real world? I am still trying hard...

Little things about SGP Politics

Hope her view is heard:

Simple life

How many times have you heard yourself or people around you that says "I just want a simple life"?

What is simple life?
How to lead a simple life?
Why you want to have simple life?

I believe everyone definition of "simple life" is different; where some might make it so complicated and yet insist on simple life.

My life has never been simple because I didn't make it happen.
I do these and that, think about here and there, plan everywhere except to make it simple and happy.
The repercussion was people around me might be affected.

I start to appreciate people who say "just do it", you live once only.

A coin has 2 sides

Today, I saw a difference side of Taiwan.

1. There are actually alot of immigrants in Taiwan.
Comparing to a year ago when I first got here; I noticed more foreign in this country.
a.Breakfast at hotel and ~40% are foreign. It used to be like only 20%.
b.Taking the train and noticed that there are quite a number of Vietnamese, Filipino and Thai in the same cabin.

2.Courtesy – They are not as nice as I thought so.
a.Not all Taiwanese will give up their seats to the oldies.
b.Overhead a couple that rudely called the rowdy Vietnamese as “畜生”!!!!!

Taiwan padi:

Upset with World Vision

I received the annual report on the sponsored child.
I was so excited and happy to receive news from the kid but not when I read the detail.
1. Health – Good. (Nice, isn’t it)
2. Education – STOP at grade 4. Reason: To do housework.

WHAT!!! Besides improving the community, they are supposed to educate the kids and thus World Vision has been promoting that the child sponsorship is a long term commitment.
What's there to improve when allowing a kid to quit school at young age??? I am pissed and am ready to call the World Vision tomorrow.
If necessary, I will terminate the sponsorship.

What make you happy?

There are so many things in life that can make us happy or sad. What are yours that make you feel good about life, about your existence?

This picture of me, is taken at East Coast - after work and had a good meal of black pepper crabs at the Joo Chiat Place.
We sat by the beach, spread out the groundsheet, enjoy a game of “black and white” and a box of D24 durian. Hehee… I am turning into a typical Singaporean, isn’t?
And all these actually make me feel bless and happy!


Recently read a book “Jonathan Livingston Seagull”. It is a book about a seagull learning how to fly and learning about life in the process.
Inspiration book is not my cup of tea but this book was a gift by a manager, 6 yrs ago! I never pick it up, until few days ago. Our thinking keeps changes and evolves as we travel with times.
Personally, I felt that as long we never stop learning, we CAN and WILL be happy.

2011 came just like that!

Zoom.... A year has gone, are you ready for a new year?
Is there any new hope/goal/objective in the coming year? Of course!

Quick review of my last year wishes:
1. Number ONE is Good Health for me and family
Mmm...Errr… At least we are not diagnosis with any incurable disease.
In the New Year; I pray, I wish that everyone have a good health.

2. The line setup will be smooth and our company product will be successfully launched...
Err… still in progress. At least there is improvement. Be optimistic

3. Able to spend more time with friends.
Can be better, I guess.
Love them to bits that they are very understand toward my crazy schedule.

4.Travel / Holiday, to at least 3 more countries.
Ah, checked!
September: Switzerland, Milan (Itay), Munich (Germany)
December: Phuket (Thailand)

5. Getting my own place.
Oops.. SGP housing is expensive for singles to afford. Soon, I hope to own one.

New goal: Actually, it is the same as above.
1. Good Health and Be Happy
2. Nice job with job satisfaction
3. Spending quality time with my love ones
4. Work hard but PLAY harder.
5. Getting an apartment
6. Maybe just one more – wish I will NOT age fast. Aging effect is obvious taking place.

Hot coal

"Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned"
-Buddha quotes

Will I be the one that get burned?
How do you release anger?
How can you do it without anger?

Confusius Quotes

Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it.
-Confucius
Whatever within the beauty, is it a real beauty?
Can you really see/find the beauty in EVERYTHING?

It is easy to hate and it is difficult to love. This is how the whole scheme of things works. All good things are difficult to achieve; and bad things are very easy to get.
-Confucius
Sounds right and it happen in everyday life

Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated.
-Confucius
Without complication, we wouldn't have internet, communication, fashion, food, etc.
But have we gone overboard?

Success depends upon previous preparation, and without such preparation there is sure to be failure.
-Confucius
That's why we have "study week" in school, and OT when in work force.

There are three methods to gaining wisdom. The first is reflection, which is the highest. The second is limitation, which is the easiest. The third is experience, which is the bitterest.
-Confucius
Mmmm.... still trying to figure out.

Re-position my priority

Some things must have change, to the extent that my way of thinking is changing as well.
These days, people work hard so that they can have big slice of bread and how does it impact our life?

Parents!
Both parents (Single parent too) work hard to support the family so that they can
1. Send the kids to "good and reputable" school,
2. Purchase a good home where a good school is nearby
3. Hire a maid to serve the kids like a king/queen and end up, these kids do barely anything.
4. Must own a car (must be "expensive" type?)
5. Afford oversea holidays
6. Expensive gadgets (latest phone, TV, watches, electronic game, PC) for the whole family.
But is it worth it when you don't have sufficient time with the kids? Kids go astray easily and they think they "know" what they want...usually they don't.
We were kids before, why can't you understand what they want?
Of course, there are good rationale parents that make the balance but a lot are going out of hand.

Single working adults!
We worked hard for the money, so that we can
1.Spend impulsively on fun (parties), fashion (bags and shoes), travel.
2.Not wanting to get married and have kids.
Not implying that we should not spend (Spending is good for oneself and economy) but excess will prove to be a problem.

I don’t have an outgoing personality nor am I an introvert. With a hint of luck, I got to travel and spend a fair bit of time in the countries.
Over these periods, I witnessed incidents that affect personal life
1.Married couple who were temporary separated due to one party that needs to work in another country. One of them cheated; not all cases but a good 50%?
2.Singles who found their love
3.Singles who just being a ‘butterfly” that visits every pretty flower.
4.Parents that misses their kids and vice versa; but will this affect the relationship? I don’t know
5.Parents of the singles, worried about their children

Then few days ago, I fell sick. It make me re-thinking why… why I chose this path that
1.Alone when I am sick
2.Alone when having meals
3.I haven’t speak for a long time, because there is no one to talk to over the weekend, except “thanks” to the servers
4.Why am I alone here when my family and racer are back in sgp
5.Why am I walking down the streets alone

I guess I have reached the stage where my priority has change from having fun to seeing the world to spending time with my family.
The last time I sat down and have a meal with mum; I realize she is getting older.
However, I commit a timeline to this job; I will stand by my words but will look for alternative when the time is here. (Soon)

SOME things that may be explain

Why would you want to be nice to SOME one?
Why would you want to be an asshole to SOME?
Why would you want to be loved by SOME one?
Why would you want to treasure SOME thing?
Why would you want to do it SOME time but ignore it at SOME other times?


Why people do thing without following their hearts?
Sarcastic!!!!

If you have set the same example more than twice, it is the same as setting an expectation??
What am I talking? Just crazy, I guess.

Is blogging good?
You get to know someone through website and is not through the traditional way of chitchat/message over the phone or even face-face conversation.
What happen to the chemistry?

Life been life, is that really it?

Will life come to a pause?
Will life come to a hop-over?
I am running out of patience. When I do; I run, I hide and I shall never be found...

Realise things are far more beyond my reach, far beyond my control.
How can things be so hopeful yet disappointing at the same time?

Packing up my mental baggage and head through the door(s).

My name is ping which mean "ice" in mandarin... Maybe it's trying to tell me to be like a ice - cool and solid but eventually it melt and evaporate into the thin air when in the wrong hand.

North-South poles

Read an article over the Chinese papers, by a MONK (that why it got my attention). Topic was to discuss about what women and men want.
Men: The "logical" flow is
1. Having a job and earn money
2. Have a relationship and settle down
3. Then it's gaining status and/or power.
They did explain the reason and it did sound reasonable.
A man need to have a stable job with income to attract woman and feel confident to support the family. Once that is achieved, a relationship can be start and remain healthy. So, if he is happy with a job and not to worry about family, he will then turn his focus to gain status and work his ass up the organization level.
So, is that the reason why majority of the success are married?

But I think there is underline condition in there. A family can be start if the couple can have the same vision or goal. A man can fall in love from 20 to 60, whereas a woman is probably from 20-40. So, they have to be attracted by the wisdom of each other, not by the physical appearance.
People get old and this is unavoidable; whereas humor and wisdom can nurture and grow.

Woman just want a gentleman who care, support and stay by her. Is this consider simple? But these days, it is hard when a lot of women are career minded and want “equal” status as men. They trying to be “North & North” or “South to South” poles, when we are design by nature to be North & South poles.
Mmm.. thinking thinking!!!!

Oh....Next article is – "Implanted breast exploded during air"; when the plane met with turbulence … And now, the woman is suing the plane company for damages… I have not further comment except for a good laugh.
Nothing is surprising these days.
Link http://www.waspsnest.com/2010/06/08/russias-largest-exploding-and-bruised-breasts