Dreams

I have not been sleeping well for the past few days - Insomnia and was worsen by dreams. Weird and bad dreams such as
1. Shitting till the squatting toilet overflow. Hahhaa...
Oh, Taiwan toilet are mostly squat type.
2. Fire in the lower floor neighbor@ SGP, so I was busy pouring water.
3. Dreamt that I rent a studio apartment. Mmm… where got money? But that was a really nice cozy one. When!!!

Many more but I don’t remember liao.

I don't belong here

I realised that I like Sydney alot more, as compare to Taiwan.
Better accomodation and I have better transportation... unlike Taichung - staying in small enclosed 4 walls and transporation is taxi!!! No greenery as well.
So boring!!! Cannot do cooking too...
Every signs are in traditional chinese... so it's a pain for me.
Ahhhh...Why most people think I will like Taiwan? NO!!! Give me back my steak, my lane cove park, the wild bunnies, the birds chipping in the morning, and many more.

Silent killer

Hey, has anyone taken the SQ flight to Taiwan.
Oh, it's suck! Really low standard.
The entertainment system is super old!! No interactive menu!!
Even the shows are fixed! Can't even restart the show. Damn lousy.
Food is horrible as well.
Plane was full...so smelly toilets.

Worst, some joker "FART" after we landed, and it is the silent killer type. Almost like the super powerful atomi bomb...I almost fainted.
Haven't encounter such a "power smell" in a long time.

The price for the fare? It is more than S$1,000.
Definately NOT worth it. Where to complaint?

Thankful

Meet up with friends and family for the past two days.
Although it is physically tiring to meet up after a long day at work (me just not used to hang out after work...Sydney lifestyle is work, eat, home, sleep), BUT I still felt great and alive!! It has reassured me that it is still much better to be nearer to friends and family.
Even I wasn't as chatty as before but I still do find....."internal" peace (I don't know how to describe it - just contented that I have them around me).

Now, I am thankful!!!

Today, there is a bit of tension at work. Hopefully, it will get better soon.

I feel bad about my neck

I just read a book - "I feel bad about my neck".
Err... damn, it really made me feel bad about my neck now and the worst part is that there is no way we can turn the clock back. Cosmetic surgery is not in my list.

Another sentence that made me feel like tearing the book - "you should wear bikini as often, until you reach thirty-four". Damn!! why does it has to stop at thirty-four!!

Another one - "Fall in love again" but with your apartment.
This one is good too - "BUY and not rent"; but where got money.

I always take SGP for granted and never knew that I can enjoy such a nice scenery + nice clouds. I took this in SGP! Unbelievable...
Things can happen!!! only when you place your belief in it.

Have you been there?

It's my very first time – visiting the Istana (next to Plaza Sing)
Istana (palace) was previously known as the government house, 1869.
Later, it was renovated in 1996-1998 to be what it is now.

I had mixed feeling (mainly sadness?) when entering the place. Reasons:
1. I never been to the Istana before, and I have been a Singaporean for the 30+ yrs. I'm sure there are more “youngsters” like me.
2. There are much much more foreign (PRC, Indian/Pakistan, Caucasian) than Singaporeans... rather, I notice a lot more PRCs though. You definitely can recognize them by their accents. Like what people say, you can pick up a Singaporean by the way he/she speaks. The same rule applies to the PRC.
Oh, even the drink stall is operated by PRC. Is it because "they" are citizen already? or is it because Singaporeans refuse to operate the store?
Shame on Singaporeans...
But why they want to come to SGP whereas some people that I knew (from the same country as well); can't wait to leave SGP. No, I think I should say those people that I knew are the nice talented PRC so they are smart to know they should venture out of SGP? I don't know. I feel I no longer know SGP; it has changes so much that I feel like a stranger. Or am I the one that has changed?
Was it because I spent less time here? Or what is it?
Changes are necessary but it is subjective to what kind of changes. IS the change that our country going through now - good or bad?

Bottom-line, you probably spot 1-2 Singaporean out of 10 in the Istana... Isn't that sad?
Own country palace, but yet you don't find locals. Is that more of a tourist attraction? Is it because Singaporeans are not proud of own place? Or is it because it CNY where they have visiting to do?

Anyway, we got to see the president as well... the very first "government" figure that I ever met in person.
Finally, what are my feeling/thoughts? I felt heartbreaking for him and the country - "why so few Singaporeans" in the open house.

If you interested to go, you can check this link
http://www.istana.gov.sg/IstanaGrounds/OpenHouse/index.htm

虎虎

恭喜发财！！！
It's the TIGER year!
Head out to the chinatown last night. It was super packed so we tried to avoid the crowded alley.
Quite a number of stores just do "lay-long", screaming at the mic: " Chopsticks ONE dollar, ONE dollar, ONE dollar..., ONE DOLLAR ahhh!!! HUAT AH"!!!.....
Man, I wonder how he will able to use his voice tomorrow.

Stepping in the New Year, beside my personal interest and affairs; I like to see how the SGP gov handle the followings:
1. The famous Romanian hit and run. I think the guy make a huge mistake by accusing the sgp gov set him up.
This time, the sgp gov will for sure nail him down - it is an issue of "face" liao. haha...

2. How they tackle the increasing house price. Not insisting that I am dependent on them on every single thing. But the basics needs such as housing, they should monitor and act closely; else why are we paying them with our tax? Besides, HDB was created years back and the objective is to provide affordable flats for the citizens. Where is this objective now? Unless they declared this is no longer true.
Definitely, there is an increase in richer class now, but the low and middle classes should NEVER be ignored.

3. The increasing population due to immigrants. This may or not be the whole story but look at our transportation, security and cleanliness. Of course, they are more issues that make me sick even by thinking of it, and I do not want to mention them now.
I agreed we need immigrants but the authority should check the background!!!

If nothing is done, one day... one day... birth rate of singaporean will be even lower... mature singaporean will leave.
I like to make this place home, but will this happen?

Do you....

Doing "last minute" cleaning at home.
Manage to "tidy" my room abit; but it is not a good job. But at least it is a decent one for my own comfort.

Took a break to read some news and found this articule - THERE ARE ACTUALLY WOMEN WHO DO NOT CHANGE THEIR BRA DAILY! MOST DISGUSTING NEWS IS THAT SOME CHANGE ANNUALLY!!!
WTF???
link: http://www.divaasia.com/article/7502

Losing it

There is a saying - if you can't change the environment, change yourself.
I don't know if that will happen to me.
Also, it's another saying that if you are not happy with yourself; no matter where you go, you will never be happy.
I am tired of the system now.
Am I stubborn? Maybe.

However, I am not a systematic people and asking me to do systematic stuff is like killing me.
Documentation, working more and more time on documentation. This is not ME.
I like hand-ons but making documentation so tough that I have to do it much much more often is killing my interest on job.
I think I am losing it.

Now, I just wish that princess will get well soon.
For myself? Maybe can consider go sell "tau-hui" lah. :-)

Anger

Blow my top at work today, I am sooo tired.
I broke down as a result.
I don't know what to say, I am just so disappointed and angry.

I feel like giving up and I don't think these are words of anger.

I missed my family, my dog, my friends now... friends that are not fake.

Cuddle me please.

I was celebrating a friend's birthday earlier while something happened and shudder my life.
For a long time, I thought I was young... but when I did some calculation... damn!!! I was actually OLD liao. Not saying she is old as well but at least she is in a better stage than I do.
Good job, staying in a nice country, has a nice family, and her two cute kids.
What do I have and where am I? Still single, roaming around alone, not caring of what happen next, etc.
Suddenly, I feel like settling down. Hahaa... too drama?
I just want to be cuddle now… mmm…

Guess, attending and/or celebrating birthday can be quite depressing.

Body of a 30's

I don't know why I didn't have the focus as before.
I am forgetful and my brain refuses to think.
I get tired damn easy and I found myself using the last bit of my "mental" power to remind myself that I am not tired... keep myself going
I had slept early (maybe occasionally late) and I eat much healthier then before too; so what is the problem?
My immune system is fighting hard and getting low. I have reoccuring problem every month... I am really drained.
It is affecting my life and work. How can I overcome and fight it.
Can feel my body slowing tearing apart...I am tired of it.

Sound too negative? I think so too.
I fighted... I don't want to lose this battle.
Till when will it end?