Happy New Year

I have choose not to spend my New Year in Singapore, so I head out to the nearby Malaysia.
Road trip again!! In fact, it was a good drive to Meleka and I never knew I will actually enjoy Malaysia that much.

Happy New Year, my friends.
May the new year be a healthy year for us....

Forget the past

Are you ready to count down to a "New" year? I am... and I hope you are as well.
What does a "new" year mean to you?
A new job? err...
A new dress? yes...
A new pet? no...
A new car? woo...
A new partner? haha...
A new house? perfect.. .
A new life goal? why not...
A new travel destination? alway...
A new list of items? and the new list can go on and on...I haven’t really think about mine yet.

But I do know that a new year means a lot; but I have to start from forgetting the past (or rather it should be putting the past behind), keeping the good memory and be a “good” person to myself.

Guide me on this:-
I was reviewing some photos that I took a few days ago... and I found this particular interesting one ... (below is the crop version)
Note: Pay attention to the wordings on the screens.
It says: 12/26, 2051hrs on the clock and the TV wording are "Forget the past".
Tell me - Is this sign considers as "sighting" or "luck" or "pure coincidence" or “observation”.
Oh Oh... any of the numbers strike 4D? hehee... I never buy leh; else sure bang wall.



Lastly, how often will you pay attention to your surrounding? I think they usually provide you with the best answer :-)
See it with your eyes, listen with your ears, think with your mind, feel it with your heart, walk forward with your legs, show it with your hands, and say it with your mouth!!

How dark can SGP be?

As you may or not be aware that recently, there is a hit and run accident involving a "particular" country embassy car.
This is getting interesting and is like watching a show, but only title is available.
No visuality to what happen, despite a life has been lost and with few others injure.
No news coverage on major SGP online news websites.
No comments from the highly efficient police.
What's next?

Why are we closing our eyes on such issues?
Why are we toleranting this？
Our dear goverment, our dear police.... the dead and injures are from your own country. When will you help to give them the justice that they deserve?

New toilet seat

I was watching the Mama Mia @ the Star City the other day... (BTW, it's a nice muscial performance)
I went to the loo and saw this interesting toilet seat cover.

The seats are covered with plastic which are automatically "renew".
Now, you can sit without worrying about dirty seat.
But I wonder if this will work in SGP since people have poor toilet ethic.

Internet the new scam

Ever think how internet help to track you down (unknowingly)?
I'm at facebook and it seems that all your friends (including strangers) will able to know what are you doing and/or have been doing.

Is this a good thing? I don't know. Maybe it is.
Sharing all the happy moments with friends? Are they really the real happiness?
For example: The relationship status can change from single to attached to married and then single again - this creates a whole lot of topics for the KPOs.
Knowing so much, will it do you any good?
Knowing too less, will it do you any harm?

I guess the bottomline is... as long I know you are safe. That is the only answer I want and is looking for.

After Xmas is New Year

Another year is drawing to an end soon.
What have I gain and achieve? Plenty!
People sometime complaint that time passes SLOW but to me, it's damn fast.
However, I think it is to match against what you have accomplish within the time period.

Do you know that Sentosa is going to have a small "disney" castle?

Rude welcome back

Took the train at 10am this morning; and it was packed like sardines in a can.
The barrier at the station is done up; automated (need to burn more fuel) somemore.
So, did I hear everyone claiming to have energy saving stuffs? Green environment etc? Then what's the heck about spend so much money doing up the barrier? Might well use the money and operate more train service to ease the jam?
Stop telling me about safety feature when the commuters did not practice safely; because I have seen places where there are no barriers and things just work well.

While in the train; I just simply hate it...
Tell me about MP taking the train and praised that it is very good.
Gosh, did he/she take train during the peak (Oh BTW, 10am is NOT peak hours)?
Did he/she try to take train without some pre-arrangement? Those "iron rice bowl" people will definitely arrange nicely what. It don't need rocket scientist to figure that theory.

Yes, we cannot afford cars but we paid for the transport! So, shouldn't we deserve what we need? Not crowded train where that AxxHxxx underpit is just next to my face.
Also, there are plenty of elderly in the train; where those young idiots sitting down there and pretending to be asleep.

Now, what frustrated me was:-
Need barriers so that people will not push someone off the track?
Need posters (that does not work) to remind people to give up their seats to needy?
Isn't that obvious that the moral and culture of Singapore is WRONG somewhere?
What happen to the education system?
Where is the "hao gong ming"?
Why everyone just blindly follows the wrong path?
Where is everyone's conscience? "Eaten by dog?"

My nice friend says to me (after my fxxx complaint):- "Welcome back to Singapore".

Girl power!

I am back to Singapore!! For a whole 2 weeks!!!
This is the first time since I started the job; where I’ll be home for such a long time.

Travelling back to SGO was a good start.
We got upgraded to business class (Yeah!!!) and my colleages claimed that I have "girl power"... because all 3 of us got upgrade to business. I think what we have to do is to ask; nothing to do with girl power.
The service, food, seats are way much better than the economy.
Service: the stewardess addresses you by last name - Miss Tay (wooo..). They bring you water when you woke you from nap; no need to ask!
Food: Food is served in proper utensils and they taste really yummy
Seat: 50% more spacious than economy and may be extended all the way down - like a bed.
Now, I think I am hook to the premium but no way I can afford.

Oh ya, I ordered a SLR through the US website… and it arrived the same day as I touched down SGP. Another plus point to be home!!!
Question is whether I will have time to play with it. Hehee…

Merry Christmas...taken with my phone @ Darling Harbour.

Sinful but damn good

Had this for dinner.
非常好吃; 不过肥死我!!!!!

Swim or drown?

Head for my first Sydney beach swim today.
Weather was good ~25C... with very chilly water. Took me about 5min before I brave into the water.
The plan was to try surfing but the beach (Bulli, about 90min drive) that we head to... has no surf board for rent. So, that's it - just swim in the nice cold water with great waves.

Initial part was great... I was enjoying the swim with current pushing and pulling me in and out of the shore...
Within seconds, I was been pulled farther from the shore and into a deep depth by the strong undercurrent. And no matter how hard I tried, I just can't get any nearer and it does seem that I can't make it.
For a minute, I was wondering if I should give up and get myself drown. I did wanted so much because... In my life, there has been incidents after incidents where I struggled so much and hard to fight and live on.
When will be the day that I give up?
Anyway, I didn't really panic; maybe I knew I can't and cannot afford to. ALso, it was too much for me to give up now...
I continued to swim.... of course I made it else I wouldn't be writing my blog now. :)
And I did not quit just like that; I stayed in the water much longer - to have a good time....
The price? I got a really bad sunburn and uneven tan :(

View from the Grand Pacific Drive:

Illusion or not?

A thought just trigger yesterday.
I saw a number of people (married/attached) displaying their "family/couple" photo in the laptop wall paper, wallet, desk photo frame, etc.
I can't help wondering.... why people bother to display the illusion of a happy famly/couple when they cheat on the partner?
Sorry, maybe I am negative but I have seen quite bit to know that nothing is a perfect family/couple.

Ok, I getting ready to head for the beach...and turn into a roast pig.
Hope you will enjoy your weekend.

Fishes...

Mmmm...I like to go back for more of this... it's FUN

Timing - an role

Yesterday, I drove to the airport again.
The day before, using the same route and time - I witness a beautiful sunset.
However, yesterday was a raining day with plenty of lighting. I will say it was another beautiful sight.... the lighting struck across the dark cloudy sky...wow..

Also, I used the same route to/fro the airport.
It was smooth traffic while heading to airport.
But there was an accident on the way back.... same route!

How irony can that be? Same route but at a different timing gave me 2 extreme view and feel.
This apply to life as well. You can be the same person and assume no change in you... however what happen to you, will be dramatically change in an instant.
Do you have control over what happen?
Timing play an important to us and it affects what happen around us.

Ok, talk about my scary "6-sense" again....
While driving in the rain; I will picturing myself seeing an accident....
And indeed that I saw one an hour later... Gosh!

The other day, I took a stroll near my place and wished to see bunny.
Usually I got to see them only after dark; but that day, I saw >10 bunnies jumping around... in broad day light.
How lucky can I be?

No wonder, some people say "be careful of what you wish for".
Are you wishing for anything now?
Me? I don't know... maybe have a try on sailing? :-)

Never the same sunset

This evening, while I was driving to the airport; I saw a beautiful sunset... It really awesome and perfect! I don't know how to use words to describe it.
For a moment, I felt so lucky as I was at the right place and moment to enjoy that.
In the same time, I was sad that I am leaving this ground soon. The clock is tickling
Nothing can turn the time back nor slow the time down.
It's really true that we only live once and thus we have to enjoy every single moment.

Say if tomorrow I were to drive pass the same route; I might not get the same scene again.

Manly beach

Today, I went on a family day trip with a friend's family. Yes, I imposed as part of the family member. The reason? I will able to purchase the ticket at only A$2.50.
The family day ticket has unlimited access to ferries, trains and buses; and the routes cover all the way till blue mountain.
However, one thing I find it weird is that the condition of a "family" is - at least a kid is involved. What happen to a married couple?

We took train to the city and then hopped into the ferry to Manly beach.
It was a beautiful day so the beach was packed with people surfing, swimming, sun bathing, picnic, etc…

Topless babes sun bathing is a norm
Babes in bikini and topless hunks walking down the street are eye candy
Kissing, Hugging and Make out session are everyway.
All I can say is “Welcome to Sydney”!

I envy the families. The parents are constantly giving hugs and kisses, even the kids are around.
Very rarely that you can find such act in an asian culture; which I don’t understand why. What wrong about showing affection and love?

10 things to do

I was reading an article from a local magazine and found this. But I think you can find it almost everywhere in the net.

10 things to do:
1. Spend time on your own.
I absolutely agreed. I mean I very much enjoy having a good company but I definately am also the kind that need quality "alone time"; especially a tiring week of work :)

2. Live with flatmates.
Yes, yes, yes! I think one has to live with others (other than family). This way you learn to be more tolerant and independent(?). The world isn't all about just you and no maid or mum to help with your washing.

3. Get money smart.
Easier said than done. But make sure start with no debt.
I remembered that I worked hard to clear my debt... When the debt free day came; the feeling was (and still is) wonderful and light weighted. I told myself - I have to avoid debt. That is why I don't like installment (minus home loan?) if I can afford; else I rather not buy.

4. Travel alone.
I have done that pretty often. Only then, I realize the joy of having a partner/friend in tour.

5. Find great friends.
Yes, yes!!

6. Have you own hobbies
So why you think I learn diving? Am planning to get a SLR to start the new thingy...(Need to save some money first)

7. Make peace with your parents
Errrr....

8. Mend your broken heart
Consider done.

9. Exercise body love
Complain is still there but I think I should live with my own body.
It's me after all. I have control over it.

10. Learn how to orgasm - by yourself.
Hahaha... where does this come from?
Maybe should start buying vibrator for me and the girls? Do you want one? hahaa...

How ticks do you have?


I don't really like green apples... but I like the sour green apple gum. hehee.. controversy

Good old memory

After 11 years since graduation, I went back to Temasek polytechnic for a visit.
The campus was almost empty, well maintained with some news add-on and more greenery.
Gosh, looking at the students and the board of achievers... I couldn't have imagine 11 years has passed!!! A good 11 years!!! What have I done, gained and achieved from these time?

Recap:-
After poly, I worked with a great, fun and awesome young team at M1. I still know these people till date; and.... they are still as awesome! Bravo.
Then followed by 2 crazy years of study in Brisbane... (minus the detail)...hehee...
Backed to Singapore after uni and worked in a MNC; gained working experience and great friends. Fantastic!
In between, I did a significant amount of traveling. Beautiful world and places!
Now? Working in a young company of difficult culture and experience. New challenge!

Of course, in the 11 years; there are ups and downs. Have I regret?
I will say NOooo.... every single bits and people that I know and meet; have an impact in my life (positive and negative contribution).

If you have a chance, do revisit the old memory; you will be surprise what you have forgotten and once experience through.
Your feeling and thought will be different from the old days. It can be really sweet and beneficial. Also, the bad memory will be not be as hurting as before and probably you will laughed at yourself as you recap.
Time really heal wounds; with the exception that you are "older" now (especially when you see the young boys and girls). Haiz, that go my bubbly days... I am still but not as much anymore.

Big feast...

Interesting encounter during the flight home - I was seated next to an shipping executive who think that I am too young to be an engineer.
Should I take it as an compliment or insult?

Maybe because it is the school holiday period; the flights are full, and in fact it's overbooked. Now, who say the economy is bad? What is recession?

Today, I went to the Central No signboard for brunch, 3pm.
It was empty... it looked like we have booked the whole restaurant as we are the only customers?
Ordered the set meal - lobster salad, shark fin soup, white pepper crabs, veg and almond logan.... YUMMY but expensive too. Oops.







Also, have you tried the reflexology fish spa? Where you stick your smelly feet into a pond of tiny fishes. The fishes will "bite" and "eat" your dead skin.
Very fun....you should try :D hehee....

Cupcakes...

8 days just fly by, the ladies are back to SGP and their long missed food such as chicken rice, curry rice, prawn noodles, wanton mee, etc.
Hahaha...

Also, it's unbelievable that they bought soooo much cupcakes back home.
But the cupcakes taste really good and look so cute :)

Hot! Hot! Hot!

The weather in sydney is firing up. It is sooooo hot.
You can literately feel your skin burning just by standing in the sun for less than a min.
Worse - my apartment has no air-con. I pity the girls.... bear with it ok. :P

Count down...

In a couple of hours, the ladies will be here.
I bet it will be great fun... Hurray.

Just thinking.... Life is gamble; you lost and win.

Coming, coming.....

Time flies; am back to Sydney.
But I am looking forward to Saturday, where the girls will be here.
Yeah.... :-)

Amazing thing in ION

Singapore never failed to amaze us, check out this forum.
Tell me, what else can be more "steady" than this:
1. Bring a poo pot out to orchard
2. Allowing your kid to pull down her pant and poo in the mid of Ion food court.
Speechless....



http://forums.asiaone.com/showthread.php?t=23975

Tragedy

Gosh, the government spent money to install the barrier at the MRT station; yet yesterday... another man fell and got killed in the track.
Now, how useful is the barrier... sad to acknowledge that!

4.6mil

Singapore has changed again. Taking a ride down the orchard road..observed more people and yet more people. What is the population now? Quick check - 4.6 millions
Holy cow... can you believe that there are 4.6mil in this tiny island.
One day, the moment you step out of your home; you will be walking shoulder-to-shoulder with a stranger. Aren't that "warm"!
Oh, what's up with the lift upgrade? Been ongoing for a year?
And what's up with the new barrier at the MRT station?

Nevertheless, what else can I complain when I just ate a chicken rice at $2? But another at $8 on a different location. Is this why the rich is getting richer while the poor is struggling to make a living? What about the middle class? Sandwich?

Just watched a TV advertisement which ended with a sentence: "Love - it has no expiration".
Is this true? Do you think it can be true?
What is consider as love? and what is consider as true love?

Nothing beat the simple sentence... "I love you". Not everyone is capable of proudly saying it out loud and truly mean it in the same time.

Can you love. and let true love to blossom without expecting in return?

LZ10

Tried out my new toy today... it is great so far...
I have to try out the night mode soon...
Thank you :-)

Headache

Got back to SGP last night; and woke up to a major headache this morning.
Not sure why but it has got me lazy, so I am not going to office. Excuse? nah..
I didn't have headache when I'm in Sydney... what happen?

Oh, I just surf the net and read an online article that says - Nearly 70% of all married men and 60% of married women have had affairs. That’s two out of every three marriages.
Where does this number come from? I don’t know but it is a shocking number,

Ok, how do you define affair? Also, Emotional Infidelity is Cheating? What's your say?

Some people that I know seen to be involved in affair.. (of course, there are some rare gems too)
Cheaters include:
People who are attached, yet are seeing more than one partner?
People who are married but claim to be “available”? Is that considering as an affair too?
People who are married and have kids AND…and portrait as a happy family….
People who are married and have kids; but claim that there’s no love or spark in the relationship
People who are single but involve with married people.

I think there is no right or wrong; no one is allowing to judge on that. But seriously, if it is avoidable, better avoid; especially when there are kids involved.

In current era, affair does not usually start with Men; Women cheats too.
I feel women usually cheat for emotional reason. But other fact can be loneliness? Bad communication or disappointment with their man? Lack of romance?
As a woman, I think it is tougher for women to cheat with stranger; usually is with one that they know. Mmm… maybe that is why some men target at married women?
Oh, I am not speaking from experience since I am single…....so no cheating for me “yet” (not before as well). Hahahaa…

And why men cheat? Don’t know

Proof that you need is...

Mistake is proof that you are trying.

Good food...

Work for the past week has been really busy but I find it challenging and fun.
For once, I really enjoy the work. Maybe there's a bit of workaholic in me; but that complete me afterall... :-)
Spent the Saturday night in the German place - good food and beer. yummy
This is my life where work like crazy during the weekdays and relax all I want during the weekend.
Counting down to go back to SGP.
It's the Halloween time again... what should I dress up as? Suggestion?

Questions

So what do you really value in life?
What do you really value about yourself?
And what do you really value in others?

Freedom or security?
Compassion or intelligence?
Honesty or a sense of humor?

But what I wish now... is the extreme hot spicy chicken wing..
You can get these from the ..... oops forget the name again.

Life with you

If life is predictable, I guess it will be boring; and then where will be the fun and happiness.
No doubt that life can be filled with sadness and anger. But should we live with it?
I have been told that I am soft - my excuse and explanation for myself is because I really hate to fight. I dislike fighting and quarreling. Seen and been through enough to make me sick.
When do I really fight? When it involves hurting my love ones and people that I care, else I will bear with it. Does it make me happy about not fighting? Nope, not all the time... but fighting will make me feel worse.

I do believe I deserve better (and you as well), but I start to realize that I am actually happy with what I got. Still,
I can improve it
I can make it better
I can survive through
I can care. You know that don't you?
Lastly, I can look forward - looking forward for the pretty ladies and princess's visit....(YES!!)

This is the kite that open the gate to my tears....



Oh Oh, a couple of days ago; a male co-worker walked into the ladies toilet with me. I believe (or make myself to believe) that it was an unintentional act. But... still feel weird about having a male following me into the toilet, thinking ladies is the "exit". What's the heck!

Lantern

It's very tiring to lose myself constantly.
Feeling like a sponge now. Started very light... but as it get soak with water, it got heavier.... eventually, when it can't hold any more water; those water become excess and be baggage...

A co-worker lend me a book " Confucius from the Heart".
It contents quite a few philosophical thingy and whether do I agree with all?
Nah, but some yes.

One that I particular like is...
"Since it is impossible to avoid regrets in our lives, the attitude we adopt towards these regrets is extremely important. A different attitude can result in a completely different quality of life."

In oz:

Help is important to giver and taker

When is an important moment?
-> when one ask for help.
Who is important in your life?
-> the one that is who ask for help.
When is the right time?
-> now. the moment the one ask for help.

Sound logical? maybe..

no title

Why do I always think that sunshine will come after rain.
Is this true? I really doubting myself now.
Why can't I learn my lesson? Why? Stubborn doesn't get me anywhere, some time.

I am watching Mrs Doubtfire now.
How I feel? Suck!
Why life have to be this way?
Some parent really want to take care of their kids but some other might just abandon their own.
I really dislike fighting and argument. Does that mean I cannot survive in this world?

Anyway, this week; I experienced the very first dust storm in Sydney... It might be scary but was definitely an unique and rare sight. In fact, it's beautiful too.

Balance

Just rang my aunt in Taiwan; glad to hear her voice and to know that she's doing well at school.
Strange to be in school at her age? I don't think so.
She taught me to follow your heart and dream. Once you made a decision, charge and move forward. Never look back and say regret.

I have been thinking - The world is huge, is big or some may say unlimited. But is there a place for me? A place that I can live in? A place where I can find peace? A place where I find happiness?
I have been searching the world for such place.
Maybe it's me; me that has a problem that is never contented with life.

I have a feeling that it's near; it's coming. But can I identify it? Will I able to grab hold of it? I don't know.
It looks and feel like it's time for me to STOP "worry" so much over things that has not even happen.
Planing is crucial and important; but will too much planning cause unnecessary worries?

This is it.... Life cannot be too softhearted and kind; neither shall it be evil.
Balance!

I look like a crook?

Story telling time:
When I got back from Singapore, I was checked at the Sydney Custom twice.
I was stopped at the immigration custom - sent to a room for question. They check my passport, visa, occupation, etc. It's a good thing that I have company letter and name card with me.
After picking up my bag; I was exclusively selected to have baggage check for explosive, drug, or rather any illegal stuffs...
What is wrong on this trip? I looks like a crook or what?
Anyway, read from news that drug dealers were caught in changi airport... on the same day of my flight. Maybe they already got tip off so they are checking?
But what the heck? I looks like a drug dealer or what?

slow monday

The new office is ready but I didn't went in today.
Spend the day with mum - lunch and shopping.
It was good - get a good chance to practice my Hokkien (may be handy when I go Taiwan).
How I feel about being home? Like that lor.

Tomorrow...

I am listening to a song now... "if tomorrow never comes...you will never knew".
A friend is coming to visit tomorrow. I'm glad to have some company, which I'm greatly appreciate for the trip. It's help.
Thank you.

best of best?

How is life? It WAS bad; but I hope to get it straighten soon.
The ski has been postpone till next weekend...I'm still looking forward to the snow ball falling ;-)

I just went for a jog at the lane cove park; was good to be out in the fresh air.
I made a promise... straighten my life now.
So, I will start with daily jogs (oops... weekdays only)
Stop snacking on my chips and maybe cut down on chocolate. Mmm... doesn't sound convincing yet, right?
I also want to pay full attention to work; stop all the day dreaming...

Oh, I heard that there will be a upcoming business trip to san diego; I will work toward that - hopefully, they will send me.
Before, I need to fuck up and stay alert cum diligent.

Being nice is good; but being nice to people who takes it for granted is stupidity.
I had enough of that; so, start being a bitch is what I am aiming for now. hahaa...

Booze and booze

Since I got back; every Friday nights,I have been inviting people over for drinks....
It's nice to hang out with a group of people... but meaning spending money as well.
All the beers, wine, chip, cheese, tibits etc.
But I think it's ok since it is still cheaper than drinking out.
As long fun is there, should be ok... But think I have to control a bit liao.

Oh Oh... next Saturday, I'm planning a trip to ski. YEAH.

Used vs Loved

Which is your thought/choice between the following 2 sentences?
1. Things are to be used and people are to be loved; or
2. People are used and things are loved...

For me? Things are to be used, but People are to be loved ... Be
yourself....This is the only day we HAVE.

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

Fight on?

Work has always been pretty easy for me, even though it can be stress at times.
However, this time; I am really feeling pretty down about the job.
I think I know why but am I ready to take the challenge or should I give up?
I don't know.

Anyway, I have started drinking.... maybe see it as a way of de-stressing.
Life is full of ups and downs... it's interesting right?
Else it will be boring is everything goes in one tone.

Guy on the road

Damn... a guy was lying on the road!!!
In the mid of the night, under the dim street light and on one of the busy streets.

An hour ago, I was driving to meet a friend....
I encountered this guy that is lying on the road...Initially, I was wondering why the car in front of me, was making a sudden swift to the left....
Good thing that I was obeying the speed limit of 60km/hr... err.. maybe a bit more. But good that I was able to stop in time to avoid crashing into the poor guy.

Was he knocked by some guys... I don't think so... I will check the news tomorrow...
Yeah, I didn't stop to see what happen... I hope he is fine. God bless!

Beer drinker

I just went to the store and stock up my fridge with a carton of beers (24 bottles).
Also, bought another 6 bottles of wine...
Err... I'm planning to have a drinking party at my place... when? I don't know.
Just hope I wouldn't finish them before the party starts.

boring weekend

After the nurse told me that I have gained 6kg; I do tried to control my diet.
But it is so difficult when the weather is cold and I am constantly very hungry.
At least I try to snack with more fruits now.
Brought along my OTO belt as well... hopefully it will help a little.

This weekend will be hiding at home... no car so very difficult to go out. sianz

Perm. Bad decision!

I did a bad decision today - I agreed to a perm.
It turned out to a real nightmare; especially when I had gained 6kg...it just make the whole thing worse. What has happened to me?
If you remember how I looked like in yr04.. with the ceramic perm...
It is exactly the same... pump and mature face

Have to let the hair settle down before straightening again...
Now, how do I face the world?

Leather jacket, finally!

Finally, I own a leather jacket!!! I　ｈａｄ　ｂｅｅｎ　ｗａｎｔｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｈａｖｅ　ａ　ｌｅａｔｈｅｒ　ｊａｃｋｅｔ　many ｙｅａｒｓ　ａｇｏ　（ｔｏｏ　ｌｏｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｒｅｍｅｍｂｅｒ　ｔｈｅ　ｅｘａｃｔ　ｄａｔｅ）．
Ｔｈｉｓ　ｅｖｅｎｉｎｇ，　Ｉ　ｗａｓ　ａｔ　ＩＭＭ Espirt and saw this black leather thingy... The deal is that it cost ~$160. I don't think it's easy to get a leather jacket at this price.
Now, I have a new cool look.. yeah!!!

Ok, the tough part - I will have to lost the 6kg that I had put on over the 3 months.
I want to be the sexy girl in leather jacket, rather than a fat girl.
My motivation is ON!

Amazing talk

Today, I woke up early (6am) to walk to the Sembawang beach with my aunt. It was a beautiful sunrise and the morning breeze was really refreshing.
Oh, I cannot even remember when is the last time we had a conversation and spending quality time together.
When I was young, I used to live with her, grandparents and another aunt.
She is still the one that I can really open my heart to, more than anyone else.

As for as I am concern; I haven't felt this good in a long long time.
We have this amazing connection; a special bond that I can really share things with her. And her advice means more than anything in this world to me.

I almost shed tears when she shared her views.. it was like a counseling session. She is just so right.
Through the years, she has made major influence to my life.
I had been bad; I had been down; I had been through things that make me regret.... But her teaching always bring me back to right path.

Today, one of the many things she told me was "你可以后悔，可不有遗憾".
Reason is because "时间可以淡化后悔， 遗憾可是会是一辈子"
Anyway, the topics range from work-family-friends-relationship-being a person.
I'm not in the mood to write everything down now... but it does contain the bad news as well. I can only pray for the better.

Moral education is still an important part in our life - No matter what, do not do things that make you go against the conscience.

No aloha resort for me

Yesterday, I had a scare... I thought I will be send to aloha resort when I declared my "slight cough".
Glad that the medical team decided that I am "safe" to go.
After all, I had postponed my flight from last week; as I am aware that I am not fit to travel.
Anyway, after the checkup at T3; they gave me a "changi pen" as a token of appreciation of my honesty for the declaration..
I am just being safe, that's it.

The weather in SGP is indeed crazy. Woken up to a breezy weather followed by warm morning and then a thunderstorm... Now, it is HOT afternoon.
What happen to the weather?

Less sleep

Maybe it is the age thingy again?
I have been only sleeping for 6-7hrs; and these days, I am getting up at 6-630am.
wow... i usually need more than 8hrs sleep.
People tells me that as you get older, you need less sleep. Is that true?
I still want my beauty sleep.... sob sob

Ski for the first time

I had postpone my flight back because I wasn't feeling very well.
Anyway, I did my first ski in my life. It was extremely fun but it comes with a price.
I fell a numerous of times before I can do the stopping. So, now... my kneel has quite a couple of bruises and my whole body was really sore.

Anyway, I still made it to the 3 hrs hiking today... but...
I having cough and headache.
Hopefully, I can get well soon and return home.

Sunset.. tomorrow is a new day

I wasn't in a good mood today.
Therefore, I went for a drive.... and sat by the water.
Looking into reflection... why am I so mess up or is it just me thinking I am so mess up.
Nevertheless, the sunset was beautiful.
Moments that will never come back again.

Shooting stars

Last Friday, as I was driving home; the radio was playing a song "It has been a good night". Amazingly, I saw a shooting star almost instantly..
How incredible can that be?
I heard that Singapore is really hot now? quite a contrast to the weather here.
I hope that the weather will be cooler when I get back next week.

Last night, we went pub crawling. Unfortunately, we only manage to crawl only 3 pubs.
Also, I was dead tired after that. Got home at ~130am... that was really early.
Maybe because I did not have good sleep few days beforehand. Arghh

Wine tasting again

It is a long weekend here. However, I was not in time to plan any trips.
Beside I am lazy...so I just following some co-workers to Hunter Valley for wine and cheese tasting.
It was nice trip to relax....
What else did I do? Shop... which I bought a pair of knee length boots. Yeah!!!
Need to lose some weight before I will look nice in it...

Be good

At a point of time, I felt that I don't deserve love. Be it be from family or friends.
Coming to think of it - Why can't I let someone be good to me?
I guess I am fighting it because I feel like I don't deserve it.
I resist the urge to approach for help, I want to do everything on my own. This is draining my energy and making me more impatient; which indirectly screw up more stuffs.
A promise to myself - I will be self-sufficient and self-assured, and if any good comes along; I will not pass any more.

Voice

Have you encounter situations where there is a "internal voice" talking to you?
At times, a quiet voice will tell you what to do... and then whether we chose to seek the same path is another story.
Some people refers the voice as it is the God guiding/speaking to you.
Some people refers it as the power in you
Some people refers it as it is just you (you mind is doing the "logical" calculation based on what you have known/listen/learn/seen, etc)

Whatever it is, have you ever follow the voice?
I think everyone must have encountered the voice before, just a matter if you have take note. And it does not come when you call for it.
It will come when you really need it... - at least that is what I think.
So, when you think you are really down; it must not be the case. Alternative, please speak to someone (friends, family or who ever) if you really need some advise and not just sit there and wait for the sun to rise from the west.

Reverse

Last night, I developed another “thought”.
I found myself staring at the taps while brushing my teeth. The taps were labeled as “HOT” and “COLD”.
Coincidence, the words were reflected by the mirror; and were read as “TOH” and “COҐD” (cord).
2 words can have 2 different meaning; depending on how you read it. I am sure there are multiple ways of reading a word.

I am wondering - the person that was standing in front of the mirror (Me) and the person shown in the mirror (also Me); are they the same person?
How do I read myself? How do others read me?
Do I project the same ME as what I THINK I am or what I am?
Do I give people the real impression of me or is it the reverse (like the HOT and COLD)?
I think I didn’t.
Conclusion: The person that was standing in front of the mirror is NOT the person as shown in the mirror.
For my thought: Do I want to change? Or do I want to keep it the way it is.

For you:
Which one are you?
Do you hide yourself?
Do you project the reverse of yourself?

Life… it can be the straight forward or it can be the reverse… depending on your views on what is good and bad.

Overprice wine?

Had an impulse buying AGAIN. I think I MUST stop such activity.
I bought a bottle of 1999 wine @ AU$100. It tastes good but at 100bucks; it is kind of steep.
Anyway, it was suppose to be made from grapes that were planted since 1963.
So, we bought a total of 19 bottles of wine in this "winery trip".

I will be back

A week has passed...
Tonight, I am going back to Sydney..
See you 3 weeks later....

A month of changes

I was away for a month and on the surface, nothing much has changed.
However, when I read further... changes are obvious.

News about Singapore and entertainment:
1. What's up with the AWARE and the gay thing?

2. Mas.S got caught in Malaysia, again; the Singapore tax payers were not notified "early".
Wonder how come the Minister of Home Affairs did not show any sign of "regret" (since the day 1 of the escape). Wasn't he taught that one has to admit mistake and face it? Which I will give him credit if he is "brave" enough to face it. Now, whatever he say and does, people will not respect him. Also, from the forum etc, singaporean are disliking him and this is bad for the country; I do wonder what our smart PM is thinking. Mmm...
Check this link...can you tell what is wrong with the info? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wong_Kan_Seng

Afterall, it is tough to be a good minister... when you have done well and the good deeds will not be remember for long. However, a bad deed is remember for life....
Again, they are paid millions so some mistakes should never happen.

3. 2 deputy ministers? I like that.
Do you know who are in the cabinet? I never care till now.
http://www.cabinet.gov.sg/CabinetAppointments

4. Who and who - actors and actresses...
Getting married.

5. New malls opening

News about friends, family:
1. Me and some friends are putting on weight
2. Racer - new hair cut and lost weight
3. Lotte - Grew taller
4. Friend got married and/or getting married
5. New divorce case
6. New jobs
7. Promotion

Oh ya, the lift upgrade right outside my room is almost done. YEAH!
AND the australia dollars has went UP!!! NO....

Me looking out to the changes in Autumn.

3 is the number

Glad that the weather has been kind to me.
It was not as warm as expect.. (so far); in fact, it does rain yesterday.
I hope the fine weather will continue.

I was surprise to see my dog has a new hair cut.
Mum did an excellent job in grooming him; I am really impressed with her skill.
My dog has a crew cut now... hahaa... neat.

Ok, the bad news - weighting scale shown that I have put on 3kg.
Therefore, the first thing I did was to go for a jog yesterday morning... I want to run today as well.
But since I have a hair treatment yesterday, I was not suppose to wash it today.
Jog will have to wait till tomorrow. Alamak....

Leaving Sydney soon

Tomorrow, I will take the A380 airbus for the very first time.
Looking forward to the "new" plane... I have chosen the upper deck seat. Hope it will be good.
Mmm... how do I feel about going home? Err.... I don't want to go home yet.
A friend commented that I am weird girl that don't like to stay home. I agreed to that statement... but I know I will stay when the time is ripe. I just need to be tied down..hahaa...

Nice Saturday

I am counting the days (<5) to go back home. I am kind of excited...

Yesterday, I went to the city for the whole day.
Took a ferry and the weather was great - sunny but with 15C cold wind.
I really enjoyed the ferry ride and the breeze.

Lunch was the RICH chocolate drink and cake from Lindt chocolate cafe. Yes, Lindt actually has a cafe in Sydney. Isn't it nice.
After that, I just read novel by the water and have a cinder. This is life.
Dinner was again by the water, at a bar. Finally, I have a chance to see the night life of the city.

The ladies here? WOW... my friend described them as "they went out and forgetting the pant".
YES!... the mini top that they were wearing are super short. I wonder how they able to seat or bend.
The men? Woo la la... dress smart, well groom, good body and present themselves pretty well.

Closed the day by having a drink at a local quiet bar, glad that my friend is willing to show me around. Yeah!

Almost an accident

My driving sucks... drove up a curb today. oops...
Almost knocked a girl... she just dash across the street, coming from a bush...
How can I see her when she is so tiny (hidden by bush) and she was running very fast.
Glad that I brake on time. Scary!!!!!

I will be extra careful when I drive now...
Sometime is not the driver fault when people just ran out.
Still I don't want any one get hurt.

Back on action

I was lucky to find a belly dance class near my apartment and today was the 1st lesson.
Teaching method is different from SGP but I find it pretty good.
Just the first lesson, we learned at least 4 moves... looking forward to the next lesson.

link - http://www.readmyhipz.com/

Windbreaker

Had been here for almost 3 weeks and my appetite has increased everyday. haiz... it is so cold and I am constantly hungry
I just went shopping today. Spend AU$220 on a waterproof jacket which was already marked down by 50%. I didn't know a good lightweight waterproof jacket will be this expensive.
Reason for the price is because it is from Kathmudu and is made of Gore-Tex material - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gore-Tex
I got it because it will come handy when I go hiking or skiing...BUT the problem is that it is NOT very nice design and is kind of big... Anyway, I have to layer up so I guess it should ok...
Now, I must go ski when the snow arrives.... I have never ski before.
Oh, my next buy will be a good pair of hiking boot... (oops..another hole in my pocket).

Jeans don't fit

Alright, the sign of putting on weight has shown - jean cannot be button up; loose shirt are tight now.
Ok, I know - I will need to do more exercise now. But morning is early and cold to run; but evening is dark and cold when I got back (the daylight saving is in now).
Maybe is the weather - really cold so I tend to eat alot more....
Also, the nice yummy ice cream are such a huge temptation.
Strange that I didn't want rum and raisin any more; I have chose macadamia, rocky road, very berry strawberry, etc over it.
I think I amd just spoiled for choice.... afterall, I don't have to stick to one only. Satisfaction is still there when I have other favors.
I guess I am wrong when I claimed that my "all time" favourite is rum and raisin. People change; so as the taste bud.

Oh, since both my sunglasses are spoiled; I bought a new one today - Oroton.
Err... I look "so-so" in it... then why buy? Because it is cheap - it was $190; now $50.
Others were much more expensive.

BBQ

After a whole week of raining; finally we have some decent "non-rain" weather.
Our team just had a BBQ at my place.
It was nice to do BBQ in a weather of 14C..
I heard that Singapore is really hot and humid now... so; don't envy me ok.
Raining and cold don't really come any much handy; but of course, I think this would be better than hot and sweaty.
Wondering how is my Racer doing now. Hope he is well.

Thought of the day: People will change before you even notice.

Krispy creme

It was raining the whole day - on/off.
Went to the city with colleagues; we just walked around darling habour and circular quay.
As I had been there before so nothing is new. Mmm... they don't change much.
Well, I did have a double scoops ice-cream - the sinful rocky road and very berry strawberry.
Maybe it's the windy weather, the ice cream melted so fast that it was all over my hand.
I ate like a messy kid... but I do truely enjoyed it. Yummy...

Oh, did I mentioned that I ate the krispy creme too? The last time I had it was in '05 at San Diego... another yummy. oops!!!

Eat and eat

I think I have jetlag when I came to Sydney.
Usually I don’t drink coffee; but I do now, as I wasn’t able to wake up in the morning and wasn’t able to stay awake in the morning.
How is life here? Like that lor.
I have no car so transportation is very dependent on colleagues. So, no more night adventures as well.

Oh, the lunch is usually packed from home – so for me is sandwich lor or leftover from the dinner.

Gosh, I think I will put on weight again. Maybe is the cold weather; I have been eating >8 times a day
1. Wake up: Full cream milk + bread with butter
2. Breakfast at work: Coffee + biscuit
3. Lunch: Sandwich (Thick cheese with ham) + Banana
4. Tea break: Bread with butter
5. Snack: Chocolate + Chips
6. Before dinner: Sushi
7. Dinner: Fried rice or dinner at colleague place
8. Watching TV: Yogurt + biscuit
9. Before sleep: Warm full cream milk

How is work? I am blur like sotong. Jialet... :(

Laughter :-)

As per friend’s recommendation, I watched the "Handsome Suit".
It is a comedy show and its fun...I’m glad that there are "comedy" shows in this era.
It helps people to relax the face muscle with laughter. Well done!

Tomorrow, I am heading to Sydney. Nervous but am also excited about the trip.
A friend has warned me about putting weight while I am there.
Mmmm... I will try to control my diet but you will never know.
My Australia experiences have been – sure 100% will put on weight ah. So siao liao lah
Well...I will try to exercise lor but the weather getting colder leh....

Haiz… I am going to miss some people and my doggy again...
Take care.

Nightmare

Gosh, I haven't been sleeping well these days.
Kept having the similar dream which are like a nightmare to me.
Maybe that is why I gain weight.... or maybe is the junk that I ate at home.
Therefore, I seek refudge at the library today. To stay away from home, from my room.
So tired....

Time flew Fast... real fast.
It has been more than a month that I wasn't working.
Next week, I am off to Sydney and hopefully, my engine will kick off steady.

Killing spree

When you read the papers, you can find at least an article about killing spree.
It's sad to read such news when ONE "mastermind" killed the family or innocent parties.
Does it really help by killing others and then suicide?

In a family, maybe the parents do not want the kids to suffer alone after they leave this world; thus they choose to murder the kids?
In a victim environment, maybe the killer just want vent the anger and hope that the society will relook at their case.
Still, I don't think any "killing" method will help. Mindset is hard to change.
Here're two articles that happened in the states:
http://www.aol.in/news-story/Gunman-shoots-himself-after-killing-13-in-New-York-shooting-rampage/2009040316439012000004
http://www.seattlepi.com/local/6420ap_wa_children_slain.html?source=mypi

Does anyone notice that Singapore is trying to promote courtesy campaign?
For goodness sake... this is a sign that Singaporean is simply bo chap (errr... which is true)
But the basic moral of being courtesy has to be promote?
What has the world become? Selfish? kia-su?

Maybe you were thinking if I dislike this place so much, why am I still here.
Again... it bottom down to choice.... my mum is here..as well as some good friends.
Also, this is the reason why I love to travel so much. Not saying I prefer to be at other places; just that....
Travel broaden our view and knowledge... seeing how others handle the environment, situation, people, etc.
Some places may be worse from Singapore - it will make you feel more appreciative.
Some places may be better - it will help you to learn.

I was talking to friends who don’t understand why I am touring the developing countries such as Vietnam/Cambodia. She prefers developed places such as Japan where there are shopping and clean toilets.
Also, during my last trip to Vietnam; there was a couple of Singaporean teenagers who refused to use the rural toilet which is by my standard are very well off compared to some "other places". At least the toilet has a flush system.
I think it is true that the youngster will not able to survive any hardship. Of course, they can argue that they have a choice now - Singapore is well off and they can choose to tour at better places next time...
They are not entirely wrong.... but when they "fall" in term of academy or social status; can they survive?

Thief in toilet?

Today, I was at IMM....err... and I saw an interesting warning label in the ladies toilet (yes, inside the cubicle).
How can one steals from the next cubicle? How skillful is the thief? wow....

This "little sign" triggers me to think... how bad does it feel when one betrays you? When one breaks your trust? Also, how will the betrayer feels?

Some may say - depend how bad the "betray" is ....
To me? A betray is a betray... the victim is likely to feel bad/sad for forever/long time. While, the betrayer will feel guilty. So why make things so difficult?

Some may say - a betray to you might not mean the same to others. I guess it depend on the moral value of that person's mind.

How does one defines the moral of human being? How you tell the difference between right and wrong?
To me? You just know it. Guilt is there when you betray... no matter what. Just that some people can live with the guilt while some cannot. Some will try to redeem via doing good deeds... Also, sadness is there when you have been betray (especially by someone that you trust)... and the recovery is not any easy at all.

My thought is that being able to acknowledge the guilt, apologize for the action and learn from it; are very important. The "victim" will have to acknowlegdt the betray, standup and move on.
What are your thoughts?

Day 1

Mmm... Today is my first day of work - Yeah, starting work on April's Foo...What's a good start!
So, how's the day? Great! (Since, I am working from home).
The scope? Mainly on setting up email account, read some material and that's it.
This is so called honeymoon period. Enjoy while I can as I know more work is on the way.

It's the April's fool. I remember that I used to play trick on my classmates when I was in school... but no longer do this anymore... too old for that?
A few friends tried to play tricks on me today... Nice for them to "remember" me as a easy target. hahaa

It was a bad day as well - Gosh, mum complained about dad again...
Why my dad never learnt his lesson.
Why my dad can't be a "normal" dad?
I really envy others dad who care about the family well being. So, if you have a caring dad... do note that you are very very lucky and please treasure it.
I cannot find any more reason why he is "like that". Maybe in the previous life, I owned him so I am here to repay the debts? Maybe he wasn’t guide properly when he was young? Maybe he just wants to take things for granted? Maybe… Maybe… what else?
If there is god; if there is Buddha; if there is spirit of grandparents... please help to guide dad...before this family breaks. I think patience is running out.
Haiz…I wish I can break free...

Kansai trip... EXCELLENT

I have just returned from the Japan trip - Osaka, Kyoto, Nara and Mount Koya.
The trip was fun except that I didn't have enough warm clothing...so I was layering my tops - which I looked like a dumpling.

The onsen was quite an experience where you get to see Naked women of all shapes and sizes. The Japanese does have really good skin.
The temple stay was spiritual fulfilling.
The sakura was beautiful even though it is not the full bloom.
The food is great... wish we have their food quality and standard here.
The guys? Mostly are well dress and good looking.
The girls? They are really good at the makeup and at <10degc be="" br="" can="" mini="" skirts.="" the="" they="" ultra="" wearing="">The ryosan stay was awesome... sleeping in a Jap style room and "mattress".
Wearing the kimono was really exciting, especially when I got plently of attention when I walked down the street.

Ok, my holidays have come to an end.
Tomorrow, I have to start my engine and get my ass back to work.

Shin pain

I am having pain on my left leg... it is not the ankle or knee; it's the shin or rather the pain is on the shin bone.
I think I had sprained my ankle before; but I am not sure if it's the same leg. Related?Mmm...
If it does not get well tomorrow; I guess I will have to go to the doctor.
The pain has been there for 3days... today, it is so bad that I have problem in walking.
Hopefully it will get better tomorrow as I have a dinner appointment..
Also, another wedding dinner to attend on Tuesday.

This is suppose to be a good week for me... please don't let this happen and spoil my lovely week.

Teach you how to pee

I was researching about the upcoming trip to osaka, kyoto and nara.
I come across an interesting articule.... how to use the use the toilet in Japan; which teaches you how to pee using the squat type....

Here's the details for those who don't know...
There are two kinds of toilets in Japan:
1. the traditional Japanese-style toilet (or 'squat toilet') and
2. the Western-style toilet.

Public washrooms have Japanese-style toilets although in many tourist areas you may find at least one Western-style toilet. In public washrooms toilet paper is uncommon so please remember to always carry tissue paper everywhere you go (there are tissue paper vending machines located outside of the public washrooms).
If you want to only use a Western-style toilet then it is best to use the toilets in department stores or in hotel lobbies.

However, if you have to use a Japanese-style toilet here are some basic tips:
1. Face the hood of the toilet
2. Pull down your pants completely below your knees
3. Squat down as closely to the hood as possible. If the toilet is elevated (such toilets are usually found on trains), you need to stand on a raised platform while squatting
There is usually a small bar to hold on to if you have trouble keeping your balance while squatting

And then just "release"...
Link: http://www.japaneseguesthouses.com/about/ryokan/toilets.htm

Good things are in line now...I hope.

Finally, I am back from Vietnam. The trip with my parents would be better if my dad is not that difficult. Shall not mention the ugly past here.
In the coming week, I am looking forward to:-
1. Friends visiting from States
2. A friend's wedding
3. Seeing a good friend with her NEW hair style
4. OH YES...the long waiting Japan trip
5. Lastly, getting ready to start the new job

Ho Chi Minh travel

I start to suspect that I do not have the luxury of going on a good vacation.
Since the trip started in Ho Chi Minh, I am having migraine; something that I do not have in the past.
What have I done so far? Drinking the Viet coffee (Yes, for once I broke the rule and drank the nice coffee) in a nice local coffee house; with a novel on hand as well.
Oh, I have did the Cu Chi Tunnel as well..... Mmmm.... just a dark narrow tunnel lor.
Of course it does not mean much to me as compared to the war days.....
Eating beef pho is the best :-) and I just spend 50 buck on a small painting. oops...

Dim Sum @ Turf City

Went to a new place for dinner yesterday - FarmMart.
It was a pretty rural area but still, it's packed with people...I guess a weekday night would have lesser crowd.
See, there are plenty of places where I have yet to visit in Singapore...

Been a long time since I have dim sum...so today, the girls and I went to turf city.
The dim sum was going at 50% off and the bill was ~$32 for 3 of us (and we ate 11 items).
Mmm.... think it is cheaper than crystal jade?

Finally, I am going to Vietnam. Keeping my fingers crossed and hope the trip will goes well. Update you again. Take care...

Snap spots of the dim sum :-)

Yes! He is married.

How do you define a news is a good or bad one?
- One that makes you happy is good?
- One that makes you sad is bad?
It might not as simple as it seems…
A bad news might have a twist in its meaning; which can be a good news as well.
Also, a good news to one; might be a bad news to another.
Oh well, if you break the same news between today and tomorrow; it may make a significant difference. Because…. It’s all depends on how you feel about it, depends what is the situation, depends on when it occurs.
Bottom line – all just boil down to the “time and date”!!

Before bedtime, my brother told me that he met my “ex” today (Friday, the 13th) - HE is married & has “spare tyre” on his waist too!
I am really glad that he has settled down after a rough time; I felt so bad about hurting him. Till date, I still feel very guilty. How many bad things have I done when I was “young”??
Now, knowing that he is in good hand… I am so relieved.
Maybe I didn’t move on is because of this reason… I felt I should never settle down until he does.
So, it’s dating time…. who’s first? Hahaa…

Shake your butt.

Mmm... Can you believe that I actually went for the belly class 3days in a row? wow...yet no improvement. hahaa.. the old rusty bones refuse to shake/move. Damn it.

Oh yeah...today, a friend commented that I am a high maintenance lady.
If I don't have a boyfriend/partner now, I guess I am really high maintenance then.... hahaa...
I think as long as I can maintain myself; it shall be ok.
Mmm... again, can someone define the meaning of "high maintenance" - does it requires alot of attention or money or what? I am confused.

Gosh, gosh... can time slow down a little? Too many things to do yet little time :P (oops... before I forget, I better email my new manager - where should I go on the first day of work!) Yes, I accepted a job without knowing where is the new office. Well done, Steph

Love yourself, dear

Today, I went for a morning class. 2 thoughts:
1. The students in the class are the rich housewives, so for me being there, is kind of weird. Oh, maybe next time; I can ask how can I be a rich tai tai - Where to find such husband. hahaa...ya ya, me day dreaming.
2. Orchard road… man, it’s filled with pollution from the construction – loud noise from the machinery; dust is everywhere. The visibility is like the whole of orchard is filled with “fogs”. Very bad image!

Mmm… today, when I re-look at my time schedule; I realized time indeed went fast. Now I wish I have more time before I start my new job. There are plenty to do in this fast-paced world.

Again, I am glad that my life is filled with meaningful stuffs during this break – catching with friends, back to belly dance, going vacation, source for reading material, continue to improve myself….etc
Actually, before I went on this long break; I was pretty worried that I will just be bored and laze at home. However, I quickly realize:
1, things don’t just come to you, you will have to find it yourself;
2. the world will not stopping moving for you;
3. your “love” one will not treasure you when his/her love is gone or is at elsewhere;
4. it is ok to be bitchy, fxx that person who is rude to you. No need to give face lah, you give face and being paiseh? You will gana bully and achieve nothing.
5. always present yourself well. it is true that being good looking will buy you some advantages somewhere.

The kind way of treating yourself is to love yourself first; be brave and go out there.

NLB

It has been raining the whole day… but I wasn’t lazing in bed for 2 good reasons:
1. The construction outside my room was so loud. However, I left home at ~10am but when I got back at 5pm.. the noise is still there! Aiyah.
2. I wanted to get some reading material from the library.

Ok, lets talked about library first… but wait, nothing for me to complain about. It was clean and quiet…except that I still couldn’t get what I need. Also, the system is still the same as >8yrs ago – borrow books using NRIC. Yes, my last visit to the library is >8yrs ago.

Anyway, I just finished a book – Still Summer. It’s a book about family ties, sailing, friendship, pirates, etc. What captures my attention was the part where it describes the selfishness of human - triggers few thoughts:
1. How far will you go for the sake of friendship?
2. How well can you keep a secret?
3. What will you do if you were to be trap in a fight between 2 good friends?
4. Imagine you are desert in the open sea; which will you give up to save your friend - Your life? Your share of food/water? Your dignity? Your virginity when you met with a group pirates who steal and rape? Your money/jewelry?
5. Will you travel miles just to search for your missing friend?
6. Will you cry when she/he got hurt?
7. Will you continue to love her/him even when she/he has hurt you accidentally
8. ……..long list

Bottom line: Family tie is strong and as what they describe: “blood is thicker than water”; but there are some friendship that you will want to treasure for life… and some are even stronger than family. Treasure every single bit you have….

Contolling partner.

I realized woman really like to control men or is it men who loves being control by women? Which is your case or preference?
A few examples:
1. I was having dinner with an ex-colleague and the wife called every 30min. I think she is very concern and worried about the hubby. Loving?
2. This morning, I went buying breakfast; and there was a couple is in front of me. The wife ordered her share 1st, followed by the husband… Very interesting “sight” and learning. I seriously think the wife is trying to be “nice” by asking the hubby what he wants. However, every single dish he picked; the wife will “Are you sure you want that, how about this instead”. I can’t help it but keep laughing. For goodness, why ask him when you already decided and intend to over rule his decision. Still, they are married so I guess that is the way they show love to each other.
3. I was in town recently; and saw a numerous of well-dressed and manly guys sling on their partner’s tiny handbags. PLEASE… how heavy can the tiny bag be? To show off that you care about the girls? A well dress man with a sissy bag. Gosh!!!

Nevertheless, I still admire guys that open the door for ladies… Ok, you might think that the door might not be heavy but there are some, which ARE heavy. I encountered a few occasion where I have problem pulling the door yet that “nerd” just stand there. Arghh….

Mini shopping spree

Had another farewell lunch with the ex-colleagues.
They were so nice to buy me lunch and gave me a sketchbook - contains all the outing photos.
It is a very nice gesture but was also my nightmare - Looking at the photos, I was SO FAT in '07-'08; my face was so swollen as if someone has just punched me on the face. Shit! No one told me that I was THAT fat. :-(
For goodness sake, please tell me if I have gain weight. Thanks

I went on a mini shopping spree. The initial intiation was to get ONE simple black dress for a friend's wedding but it leads to MORE...
1. Zara - 1 black dress, 3 tops/shirts for the new job
2. Perlini's - 1 ring, 1 ear ring, 1 neckache - friend's birthday
3. Espirit waist pounch - errr.... for travelling? my old one was damage
4. Facial products
5. Lastly, the vietnam tour package for the parents...

What am I going to do for the next few days? Stay home and not spend money.

PS: I have went jogging 3x for the past 4 days. Keep the spirit going!!! YEAH

Raining days

As I am writing this blog, it is raining outside.
Been a long time since it rains at this hour WITH me staying home.
The feeling is very different from any other days.
I feel more calm and peaceful. Since young, I love raining day; standing by the window and watch the rain drops and lighting. Beautiful sight.
However, not many people like raining days, especially the storming ones.
It is back to the basical fundamental - any thing too much is not good (maybe except for money?)

Oops.. raining days is also refer as "bad/trouble" days...I hope I have less "raining days" in my life. There is a song that I used to sing - "Rain, rain, go away..."

I have just received another greeting card from the kid; I do notice that he knows more words now... the message just get longer. It is a good sign right?

wow....can I afford these?

I am SO free now and if this goes on; I will die of bored.
I am going to find something to do, such as going to library and do some research :P

I was doing a calculation - few things on my list which are going to burn a HUGE hole in my pocket.
1. Get a new smart phone, E71 - $300
2. A oversea trip with parents - $2000
3. Dental - $200
4. Racer's dental & annual checkup & infection medication - $400
5. Annual check up - $300
6. Insurance - $2500
7. Facial & product - $300
Arghh..... calling for sponsors now. Anyone?? hehee....

Think I have to forgo new phone, facial & annual checkup.
As for holiday, if I don't go with them now.... I wouldn't know when will I have the chance again. Beside, they always wanted to go.....
Recession? Then why is things still so expensive?

Maybe I can work part time for now? Mmmm.....

Thought of the day - There is no "easy" money in this world.

No work...

This is the 2nd day of "no-work".
Not use to it.... woke up at 8am (because of the loud construction outside my room - life upgrading program)
I went for a run and had breakfast; gosh...only 1030am.
Do the laundry, then take a nap; gosh 3.30pm (so fast)

Think I have to start planning my schedule and do something more useful then lazing around.

Took this last year at a friend's place.... I love sunset

Shaping my life

Today, I went back to office to do the EXIT interview.
Sad atmosphere but absolutely necessary; also, we had the last group lunch as well.

Every day in life, we make decision.
It can be one that does NOT favor you very well; but it is still necessary to make decision. .
Actually, in a tough situation - it is the natural instinct to make a choice.
The choice might NOT be the BEST but it is definitely "the BETTER choice among the worst".

With a month - I have made two important decisions that will help to shape my life....
Now, no turning back but to keep my chin up.

Thought for the day:-
Life is indeed short and everyone wants to enjoy it. My take is that the way of truly enjoying life is to treat others with respect.
Family: Respect the elderly
Friends: Respect their privacy – Keep their secrets.
Work: Respect your colleagues’ views/ideas
Relationship: Respect your partner – no cheating

Raining

It was so hard to meet up with friends these days, everyone is so busy.
We had to arrange 5x before my ex-colleagues and I got to meet up; and the whole process took 2 months.
My time in Singapore is running short; so I will try my best to meet up with everyone before I leave. Else the next meeting might be mths and mths away. For those that had already make time for me - thank you and take care ;-)

It was pouring today... I got wet even though I had an umbrella...
It's interesting; initially, I thought I will be uncomfortable when my feet submerged into the puddles of "muddy water"..... however, surprisingly I found myself actually enjoying it (that I stepped on every puddle I see.. oops).
It was like in the young days where I love to run under the rain and stepped on big water puddle.... except that now I am a grown up. Others might think that I am crazy... but who cares. Since my feet are wet anyway; so why bother :)
I am proud of myself that I do find entertainment in situation where most think is bad.

BTW, have you seen the news where Singapore icon - the merlion ganna struck by lighting. Is that a bad omen? Mmm...

Last day of work

Yesterday was my last day of work.
It wasn't any easy.
I went to the lab, looking at all the machines and equipment... I started them years ago and now.... haiz.
Walking out of office was the toughest. We cried but I will take the friendship with me.
Take care, my friends.

Counting down

I am counting down to the "day".
I am so nervous, I might not know what will the response be?
I have to start thinking of good way to "excuse" myself.

Anyway, I am focusing on the important stuff and hope to get it done by tomorrow.
No need to sleep tonight liao.

Good movie

Finally, it rained.
The past week was HOT! Glad that it rain now.

I had watched the show "The curious case of benjamin button".
It was a touching show - reflects on friendship, love, war, etc.
I cried... oops...

I hope, I wish, I could have a new start soon.
May my wish be granted.

Pay Cut

Global recession is affecting my life now.
My company is going to have pay cut - for everyone.
I just hope that with pay cut, there will be no retrenchment.
This way, everyone get to take home some bread.

Maybe is the recession - every family is seeking cheaper option of having a family outing.
Here's the botanic garden.... cheap way of chilling out...pack your own sandwich and lie by the grass... and read a book...
hehehee... me getting more auntie... like the quiet and relax lifestyle. (oops..)
What to do when I am "ban" from alcohol... at least for the next 1 mth. haiz...