I need these!

For the very first time in my life; I need to use these body plasters.
It's for body aching.

I see these plasters as significance to aging. And here I am, using them..
On a second thought, it may be time to use them since I have live half of a life.

What will the other half of my life be? What other tools will I need?
Hehee…At 50, men may need Viagra, what about women? Gosh! Need to plan ahead? haha

Insomia

Serious problem - I actually can't get to sleep for the entire night.
I am now a walking zombie as I have been awake for 25hrs and is still counting.
What's wrong? Sob sob.

The moment when I shut my eyes, all kinds of work related stuff appears.
I think I am under enormous stress?
I really don't want this. Help.... this is driving me crazy and I know I am going to break down very soon.

Gone are the smiles

Been long long time that I find job satisfaction?
Gone are the days where I could work 12 hrs per day but still feel happy about it.
Gone are the days where I could happily discussing work with co-workers (of all levels)
Gone are the days where you can find me smiling at work.
Gone are the days where I never able to bring myself to curse and swear at someone.
Gone are the days where I could feel I love my job.

I know that I have to act on it, instead of complaining here.
But because my team just lose a strong player and I don't want to disappoint the other members who I enjoyed working with.
I have given this nightmare till end of the year. And they have been informed.

Time to move on and place my happiness as priority.

Great co-worker

Today, my co-worker announced that he's leaving the company.
It a loss to the company as he is a great and smart guy.
It is so hard to meet someone that you can work with and there is plenty to learn from him.
Nevertheless, I respect his decision and wish him the best.
What's next for me? I don't know yet.

Fate

when one believe in it takes two hand to clap, is it referring to fate?
Or luck or timing?
I used to be so ' single '. I enjoyed dating and courtship but was never in mode to be tie down.
Long ago, there was a guy that likes me but i wasn't ready for big R. However when i feel like giving it a shot, he didn't want to.
Wonder is this the thing where what you can't get is the best.

So what you met someone that you like and enjoy the company, you are fortunate.
And, if you are fortunate and lucky, the other will like u as well.
But if you will be happy when u meet one that love u and share the same path.

Enjoy the rest of the journey.

Chinois

Took a day off and fed myself with food :-)

Lunch at "Chinois by Susur Lee" (MasterChef)
I hardly do "Chinese fine dinning" but thought to give this a shot.
Verdict: I still prefer "western" food.



The setting:


Starter with watermelon juice:


Lime-juice like mocktail


Ooops, I didn't know the set meal coming with shark fin soup (very thick base):


Fishy:


Fusion "chinese" noodles (not to my liking):


Desert:

Muslim and dog

Racer got into trouble!!
He sneaked out of the house when my brother was pushing his bike, and so coincidental that our Muslim neighbor is outside.
Then, all I heard was scream... haiz!

I recalled that my classmate told me that Muslim are not allow to get in contact with dog. Why?

Any way, I have to apologize to the neighbor.
Haiz...

Calm before the storm

The weather before Typhoon Meari brush-by Taiwan, in just a couple of hours.
I guess the definition of "calm before the storm" does what it mean.

Why does storm always appear after the beautiful things and peaceful events ended?

Sunset:

Destroyer

What have I done?
Yes, that's the curtain + frame.


Recently, I am in a shopping mood again (yes, I am buying "luxury" things now because I hold a job now, and I know I cannot afford that once I am jobless *soon*). Ok, I am very keen in buying a ring but on second thought, I think it is better hold it till later since I have a HUGE ticket to pay.
In the mean time, I came across a little survey about Singapore women and diamond.
1. Most of them who wears their diamonds regularly are those with diamond ring size between 0.65ct to 1.2ct.
2. those with engagement ring above 1.5ct, they do not wear it regularly as they found it too big and flashy. And also partly scare that they may misplace it. They prefer to keep it in their jewellery box and wear only on occasions.
3. Most whose diamond is below 0.5ct, they do not wear it regularly as they say they paiseh to wear out and scare people ask if that is their engagement ring, to save face for their husband. (yah i know, its sad but true, some gals are still materialistic, but at least they still said 'yes' which is more impt. )

I guess the answer when other asks about the ring - one can proudly say "I bought it"! :)

I know some friend may say "Steph, you can live without those materialistic items". Yes, I can; but I know once I force myself to give up... it will also mean I will need to let go of something/someone/anything.
It is different stages in my life. Not sure if I can compare to the times where I enjoyed party so much that almost nothing can stop me.... until the moment when I feel "Ok, that's enough alcohol, stop/less parties".

The monster in me is hibernating, don't wake her up.
Don't worry, I am the good Steph most of the time. haha..now, buy or don't buy?